I have major body acceptance issues and I often find it hard to embrace my body type and my appearance in general. Somedays, it gets so bad that I actually feel like a LIABILITY on people around me and start questioning my self worth and wonder if I will ever be enough for a man with this body. Somedays,I loathe my short height and on the others I feel the need to shave every strand of hair existing on my flesh. As cliché as it may sound,sometimes, when I look in the mirror I don't see a strong,independent young woman rather I see an average brown girl with tiny eyes, a big nose, and disfigured eyebrows. I have had my share of 'compliments' over the years where people say things like,"You have a very contagious smile." Or "I'm so jealous of your thick ass and big, round boobs." People around me have tried their best to make me feel good about myself but it's all in vain because the only thing I've realized in my almost 19 year of existence is that there's no alternative to SELF-LOVE. No amount of compliments can make you celebrate your ownself if you it doesn't come from within. Loving someone else is easy but loving yourself is the hardest battle anybody can fight.
So, Do I love myself ? Mostly,No.
However, Am I trying everything in my power to change that answer ? YES!